I figured that I wouldn't be able to blog as often as I would like to, so I'll blog on my hand phone then transfer it to the computer.
Well here goes:
Choir
Of late, I've been feeling pretty demoralised and worried. As I heard the SYF recording again, I heard a different AHS choir. What I heard was a choir that put in their heart and soul into the music and worked their finger to their bone to perfect it. Right now, this scene seems so distant from the present AHS choir. Sometimes I even wonder whether SYF was just a dream. We've got to get it together, one way or another.
Reading the bible
I've been reading the bible on the way to school everyday. I have to admit, while it was interesting and fruitful, I also felt very tired. One day, I came to Acts 5:1-11.
Acts 5:1-11
1Now a man named Ananias, together with his wife Sapphira, also sold a piece of property. 2With his wife's full knowledge he kept back part of the money for himself, but brought the rest and put it at the apostles' feet.
3Then Peter said, "Ananias, how is it that Satan has so filled your heart that you have lied to the Holy Spirit and have kept for yourself some of the money you received for the land? 4Didn't it belong to you before it was sold? And after it was sold, wasn't the money at your disposal? What made you think of doing such a thing? You have not lied to men but to God."
5When Ananias heard this, he fell down and died. And great fear seized all who heard what had happened. 6Then the young men came forward, wrapped up his body, and carried him out and buried him.
7About three hours later his wife came in, not knowing what had happened. 8Peter asked her, "Tell me, is this the price you and Ananias got for the land?"
"Yes," she said, "that is the price."
9Peter said to her, "How could you agree to test the Spirit of the Lord? Look! The feet of the men who buried your husband are at the door, and they will carry you out also."
10At that moment she fell down at his feet and died. Then the young men came in and, finding her dead, carried her out and buried her beside her husband. 11Great fear seized the whole church and all who heard about these events.
When I read this, I faced a problem. I was seriously confused and lost. I didn't know why God had to punish Ananias and Sapphira so harshly. I even started to doubt God's ways, question his actions. But thank God I found the answer (If you are interested in the answer, here it is)
If Ananias and Sapphira died for this sins, I wouldn't know how many times I would have died. I started to think if I was worthy enough for God. I asked Him the question, and immediately, he told me this.
'I am the father, and you are the child. If the son goes astray, the father will do all in his power to lead him back, as he is worthy. As the father would do to the child, I will do the same to you.'
Immediately, my question was resolved. Hallelujah!
Extra stuff
You Reign
What could stand before You
As You chose to embrace
A cross so undeserved You took for me
The weight of sin upon You
When You offered Your life
As You walked the streets of men
With fading strength
How could we live but not see
Your sacrifice
Your glory
You reign, You reign
Over everything Lord, You reign
With power, and justice divine
Over everything Lord, You reign
What was Your last thought
As You drew Your last breath
Where the victory was Yours for us to see
And all will know the truth
As we live by Your grace
Every praise to You alone
See now the King of Glory
Love of God become my calling
Father I surrender all I am to You forever
From the inside out
A thousand times I've failed
Still your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
Still I'm caught in your grace
Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
my heart and my soul, Lord I give you control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out
Your will above all else, my purpose remains
The art of losing myself in bringing you praise
Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart, in my soul, Lord I give you control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out
Chorus 2x
Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart is to bring You praise
From the inside out Lord, my soul cries out
